January 24, 2008
GETTING INTO CHARACTER: The Darkness Within
A few years ago I read a quote from bestselling author Diana Gabaldon on her website. It stayed with me to this day because her words gave me insight into the mysteries of character creation. I was so intrigued, I did a series of posts about it on my blog.
The quote was specifically about Jack Randall, the diabolical villain in Gabaldon’s highly successful Outlander series. As an aside, the character is one of the most insidious villains I’ve encountered in fiction. Why? Because Gabaldon gave him so many complex layers. There was a dark psychology to Jack that scared the hell out of me, and that’s no easy feat.
Here’s the Gabaldon quote in question:
“There’s a local group of fans here in Phoenix who have been taking me out to tea every spring for the last few years …. [and] at one of these teas, the readers got onto Jack Randall, and what a horrible, terrible, nasty, loathsome, repellent….etc. he was. And all the time, I was sitting there, quietly sipping my tea, and thinking, “You really don’t have any notion that you’re talking to Jack Randall, do you?”
Chilling, especially if you’re familiar with the character.
In my original post on this, I couldn’t help but wonder how much of a writer goes
into the character, especially villains. This all came to me again today while reading some news items on the tragic death of Heath Ledger. The actor was being interviewed by the New York Times last year about portraying The Joker, a hopelessly demonic character in The Dark Knight, the upcoming sequel of Batman Begins. Ledger talked about how physically and mentally draining the role was. Here’s an excerpt from the article:
[Joker is a] “psychopathic, mass-murdering, schizophrenic clown with zero empathy” [Ledger] said cheerfully — and, as often happens when he throws himself into a part, he is not sleeping much.
“Last week I probably slept an average of two hours a night,” he said. “I couldn’t stop thinking. My body was exhausted, and my mind was still going.” One night he took an Ambien, which failed to work. He took a second one and fell into a stupor, only to wake up an hour later, his mind still racing.
Characters (be them from a writer or an actor) spring from somewhere deep inside the creator. And sometimes these ‘fictional people’ can take a tremendous toll on us. I know for me, when I’m doing difficult, gut wrenching scenes, it takes me a while to come “down.” My words affect my mood, and anytime I climb inside a character’s head, I do become that character, complete with all their good and bad points.
These people come from near and/or distant places inside our minds, and tapping into them, especially if they’re dark, can be hard on the psyche and the body. How ever brief my time inside a psycho’s head, the stay is always uncomfortable. I have to think and feel like them in order for the words to flow. I can’t phone it in. It has to literally come OUT of me. You see, these psychos don’t just spring from the ether. I believe that in order to make these villains real, we have to tap into the darkest side of ourselves. Or at the very least, ingest, digest and then excrete (for lack of a better word) the darkness into our prose.
I’m also reminded of Stephen King’s fascination with this subject. He’s done two stories on it that I know of. One, The Dark Half (made into a movie with Timothy Hutton) and the other, Secret Window (starring Johnny Depp). Both characters are writers who have a darkness within themselves that literally comes to life.
Here’s the trailer for Stephen King’s THE DARK HALF
Brief Johnny Depp interview about getting into character for Stephen King’s SECRET WINDOW
How much of yourself do you pour into your characters, namely your villains? Does venturing inside the darkness ever creep you out? Do you (like me) need a mental cleansing after you “become” your villain on the computer screen? Or are you one of those lucky people who can turn it off and on like a light switch?



excellent question!
I thyink trhough our villians we can get all our frustrations out. I know the first “bad guy” I wrote every bad thing he did was me venting, maybe a fight w/ the dh, maybe the stupid ass drivers on the way to school, every time he shot at someone, in the back of my heard I was thinking, so there! And yes, you have to almost physically pull yourslef out of that mindset when it’s time to move one–I think that one advantage romance writers have over authors over the darker stories (or actors) is we have the hero and heroine and the love and sometimes HEA to balance out the “bad guy” and it keeps us from getting so depressed by the end.
Great post, been thinking on all this myself when Ledger dies and all the Joer talk came about! And the quote gave me a little shudder!
Good post.
I’ve touched on this a coupla times on the blog too. It can be exhilarating. And it can be scary.
I once had a friend read a bit I wrote about a psychotic killer. I never finished it, but he was a great character—cunning, amenable…chilling. Able to justify everything he did. She e-mailed it back to me with a request that I not send her any more, saying simply, “you do this very well, Raine. Maybe too well.”
But I love getting into the heads of ALL of my characters. I really feel like you short-change your story if you can’t get inside your villain. And no, it’s not a comfortable place to be, but I think it’s part of the job, isn’t it?
It sometimes takes a while to brush off the “dark side”, but I usually manage with little trouble. The writers who can’t…ah, well, those are the ones to watch out for, aren’t they?
Great post, Tanya! I’m thinking about this pretty hard, and so far the answer seems to be for me that I have no lingering effects of writing villains. I haven’t really written a very bad one yet, but the ones I’ve done so far don’t stick with me beyond their scenes or their role in the story. I know why they do what they do, and that’s okay. But maybe if I were writing a serial killer, I might have a different reaction. So far, my villains just want opposing things from the hero/heroine. I guess when I encounter one who is truly evil, I’ll find out just how far I can go without needing that mental cleanse.
Excellent post. I think the only way for me to write is to get into the character’s head, which I guess is actually digging onto parts of myself, going behind the guards and walls, and sometimes, when need be, beyond the moral codes/civilized (learned) behavious. A lot of times the character is who *you* be given the circumstances/upbringing.
How much of yourself do you pour into your characters, namely your villains?
To be honest there’s not that much of a difference when I create my characters. So I think I put a lot of myself into my characters in the beginning so I can understand them. I need to know their strengths, weaknesses, bascially what makes them tick. I have to find that sore spot that makes them do what they do. I have to do the same for my villians or they’d be a cardboard character.
Does venturing inside the darkness ever creep you out?
Of course. No one wants to think they are capable of taking another human life. I think that’s why I love romanctic suspense because it delves into the what if a sane person was pushed to kill? Be it the voices in their head, protecting someone they love, fighting for their own life. I say what creeps me out the most is that there isn’t a huge difference between a killer and myself. (upbringing, wanting to live a good life, having a horrible childhood) The to sound melodramtic, but we all have a dark side, some people just take it to the next level and that’s the only difference.
Do you (like me) need a mental cleansing after you “become” your villain on the computer screen?
I do have an ick feeling after writing a villian only because of what I pointed out in the previous answer. I mean have you ever watched Snapped?
Excellent post Tanya.
The answer, yes I need a mental cleansing. I have a great empathy for Villains in my books, probably because deep down I know what traumatized them to act that way. They do depress me and more often than not I kill them off, but I’ve had some minor bad guys that I tend to want to rectify, give them their own chance to be good and happy … but put them through absolute hell to redeem themselves.
You gave me a lot to think about today.
The prologue of Gracie the Sassy Vampire (it doesn’t have a real title yet) opens with an internal monologue by Grace as she walks in the forests surrounding her property and comes upon a slave girl. At that moment you don’t realize that it’s not the hapless slave girl who’s in danger but the centuries old vampire. It sociopath meets psychopath - predator meets super predator. I wrote that scene from the memories of a dream. I woke up, started writing and didn’t stop until about 20 pages later.
It used to worry me how comfortable I was writing some things. How comfortable I was with some things others weren’t. I used to tell my niece that all the trying in the world wouldn’t make her normal and it’s okay because normal is overrated anyway.
I was never a huge Heath Ledger fan until I saw him in The Dark Knight. I thought he was brilliant. It makes me sad to know how that part affected him. I think maybe some of our of more sensitive to certain things than others.
Either way great post!
Like Lynn, I’ve never written a villain who was a psychopath, just your normal everyday villains. I think that a part of me is a little afraid of that dark side.
Great post!
Dennie,
I use untapped aggression too when I deal with certain aspects of my villains. It’s a technique I learned from a book about Method Acting. I like to call it Method Writing. I tap into something that’s appropriate, and if it’s something I’ve suppressed, it flows like a geyser, which is why it takes me a while to come down afterward.
Great point about the balance romance affords us. We’ve got the love story to keep us grounded.
Raine,
You’re absolutely right. You do short change the story if you don’t get deep inside the villain’s head. I like the way Johnny Depp described it in that mini interview above. He said he respects writers because of the courage it takes to basically decide whether to do it from the head or from the heart. I can tell when I’m writing from the head. It all sounds very wooden. But when I tap into my heart, no matter what the character (villain or hero) magic happens and I go into The Zone.
Lynn,
I think you’ve been lucky because your villains haven’t really been EVIL. Trust me, if you create an evil villain and spend any time in his head, it will affect you in some form or fashion. You’ve got to tap into mental places you may not feel comfortable with. I do this every time I work on the evil twin story. The dead brother is evil incarnate, which is why I stay inside his head a briefly as possible. I don’t like him. I don’t like how he thinks. And I don’t like how he makes me feel. Evil distresses me.
Jaq,
Excellent point about the character being you if you’d shared the same experiences. I think that’s why writing villains is such an event for me. It makes me see parts of myself I’d rather keep in the darkness. It’s one of those “there but for the grace of God go I” things….
Melissa,
I think the thing with villains is that they make us examine ourselves. And sometimes the examination isn’t all that comfortable. There are some things, though that I just won’t write about. Some things that just the thought makes me ill. Anything dealing with children is off limits to me. I could never write a book like Linda Howard’s Cry No More, for instance.
No, I’ve never heard of Snapped. What’s it about?
Amy,
I think understanding the villain’s motives is the only way to write them convincingly. I can’t say that I’ve really sympathized with any of them. I try to see where they’re coming from, but mostly I’ve hated them all. They’re just vile people I prefer to have as little contact with as possible.
On the other hand, I do however, have semi-villains, people who do bad things because of less severe character flaws. For instance, in one of my stories, the heroine’s finance is a cheating lout, but I understand why he does what he does. I even feel sorry for him because he really can’t help himself. But the truly evil villains, I really can’t bring myself to feel anything but contempt for them. LOL!
Emma,
You’re one of the lucky ones who can turn it off and on. I envy that. For me, the ick factor stays on me like skunk spray for a while. I have to cleanse my mind by taking a walk, or reading something light. A movie sometimes does it too.
Bailey,
The darkness is scary. That’s why I only tap into it as little as possible.
That is an incredibly good quote, Tanya.
I dont think I’ve written really REALLY Dark..but i have written angry and emotionally charged scenes and it does take a toll. I usually need a few days to recharge my writer batteries.
As long it doesnt have to do with children, nothing much really bothers me. *shrugs* I grew up in a family of sadists. LOL. They thought/think the worse things are funny and I think that helps. It’s sort of desensitzed me.
Bernard,
Isn’t that a great quote? Gabaldon’s last sentence hits you right between the eyes, doesn’t it? I remember getting a shiver down my spine the first time I saw it. But again, you’d really have to have read Outlander and encountered Jack Randall to truly appreciate it.
Gabaldon is the sweetest lady you’ll ever want to meet. We used to be in the same online chapter a while back. She’s talented, intellectual, giving and gregarious. That’s why her comment was so chilling because jack Randall was a disgusting, vile, wicked son-of-a-b*tch.
Cece,
I think writers and actors share a sort of kinship because we both bleed into our work by tapping into something deep and personal.
Emma,
I guess I’m a sadist myself because I kinda like how writing (even the dark stuff) makes me feel sometimes. I think it’s therapeutic in that it helps me blow off steam in a way that’s safe and productive.
Snapped is basically a tv show about soccer moms, Betty Crocker type of wives who are pushed to murder. The show started off talking about “perfect marriages” that really had an underline of darkness to them; abuse, infidelity(on the husband’s part) and the wife “snapping” and killing the husband. Scary/Good show, because it shows that some woman are just sick in the head, and others just have one of those moments when they can’t take anymore and they take the law into their own hands.
Good post.
I never considered myself a particularly dark writer until I started having kids. I’m not sure if it is a maternal fierceness I’ve channeled into my writing or if my kids drive me to psychotic episodes. But I do know my villains got nastier and the scenarios for my writing took on creepier elements.
I do turn it on and off. My writing per se has little to do with the rest of my life. If I written a particularly dark scene and I feel like it works, I have a feeling of exhiliration. It’s funny, some of the darkest writers that I’ve met tend to be almost perky people. Laurell K. Hamilton whom I’ve met twice wasn’t particularly dark and Susan Squires is very friendly and open. When I heard Tami Hoag speak, she was hysterically funny. I’m perky. Maybe we expend our darkness on our writing and that lets us be upbeat in our daily lives. I will say, however, one of the darkest, bloodiest scenes I ever wrote was heavily influenced by reality. I had to do a three hour blood test when I was pregnant with my last baby. There is nothing darker and more sinister than an 8 month pregnant woman denied food for over 12 hours.